So for a while now (over a year) I've been considering going on a trip to a very unfamiliar place with a few people. Now let me tell you what the trip will be about and how I came to conclusion.
The aim of the trip is to detox and recalibrate. What do I mean? See below 👇
We will have different activities in a bid to achieve the aim above. This will include sessions listed below in no particular order.
Gratitude sessions
Bible study sessions
Joy sessions
Reflection sessions
Prayer sessions
Adulting (even though I don't want to call it that) is taking its toll on a number of us. Many people want/need us to be available and deliver. People have high expectations of us and at times you are not just in the frame of mind to even think about meeting them. There is now a conflict of interest. I'm currently at a place where all I want to do is live out my life in Christ by faith and not consider even one external factor. I know this is a phase (probably a short one) because I'm such a people person. I get anxiety and panic attacks at the thought of doing some things and now after months of going back and forth with these thoughts I'm going for therapy. I feel like I'm being confronted with all the hurt and experiences I assumed I had moved past. I also know it's like a gate pass to a new season, dealing with all these things.
I have decided to deal with them one at a time. I'm glad that in all of this mess I didn't once consider running away or hiding from God. This I'm grateful for because it has kept me anchored. My thoughts keep flying around and this post is probably not very organized. It's also not a pity party but rather a call to action. You are not alone! We all have down moments and sometimes it lingers for too long. What I will however not do is accept it as who I am or give myself a trendy, fancy label. I will deal with it and speak up when I have the strength to while at it. Like I said earlier, I know it's a door to a new season and I have to open it up. So yeah, I'm kind of a mess these days, a beautiful mess however. It's time for a deep cleaning. Guide your heart with all diligence for out of it flows the issues of life. Proverbs 4:23
Have you walked through a similar phase before? How did you handle it. Please share in the comments section below or also send a message here.
If you're interested in going on this trip with me, I look forward to receiving your mail 💌 here also.
Thank you for reading. You can also read my previous post on how God came through for me in one of my lowest moments just a few days ago.
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Timi
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